Day 74

One of the worst parts of the grieving process is thinking about all the what-ifs.

What if I had taken my mom to the doctor before she got sick?

What if I didn’t visit enough while she was at the care home?

What if she thought I had abandoned her in her last days?

What if I had brought the dogs to her?

What if I didn’t do everything I could have?

I could go on, but just typing this out is making me cry. I’m guessing this is just my delayed reaction to the past week, but who knows.