Day 41

I got part of my mom’s death benefits this morning, which will help me pay bills and wrap up the loose ends of her life. It is a massive relief and also another reminder that she’s gone. I’m grateful that this has come in because it will give me a bit of breathing room, but I’d rather have my mom here.

I had quite a bit of trouble trying to fall asleep last night, so I’ve been moving slowly all day. It’s a good thing work was closed today for the last day of Passover. I took a nap this morning and had a dream about my mom and I feel utterly useless today.