I started using a journal app in January 2022. When Mom went into the hospital in July of that year, I documented the journey and I haven’t been able to bring myself to read any of those entries. For whatever reason, I couldn’t sleep last night and read through the entries. Knowing what I know now, it was clear to me when she really started to decline badly and when she went from being simply confused to a complete shell of who she used to be. I know that I’ll probably end up writing more about this period of my life, so, in a twisted way, I’m glad I had the journal app.
I miss her.