Day 100
I hate how unexpected things trigger my grief to the point where it feels like I completely shut down. I like to have some level of predictability when it comes to my mental health, but this is so different from anything else I’ve experienced. I know it will be like this for years to come, the waves unexpectedly coming over me and someday they will become less frequent and perhaps more predictable. I’m just trying to keep focus on the good and beautiful things in my life right now, of which there are many.
It will be that way for a while, especially since it is so new. It will lessen as time goes by. There will still be days years into this journey without your mom close by thar something will trigger the sadness It will just not seem as intense.