I feel like I’ve aged 30 years in the past few days. The events on their own are manageable; it’s when they all happen at once that it becomes almost too much to handle. It doesn’t help that I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where I fit in the community. Sometimes I feel like even though I’m so involved and active, it still feels like I’m on the outside looking in. I think a lot of that comes from me not growing up Jewish and growing up differently than most of the community and experiencing the world differently as a Hispanic woman.
I think too much and yet, I feel like if I didn’t talk/write about this, it would not be good for my mental health.