Today was the last day of the summer institute. We went around and lifted our drinks to say l’chaim to the good things in our lives. I shared that the last week has been the first string of consecutive happy days that I’ve had since Mom died. There have been some not so great moments, but they were far outnumbered by the joy of being with this cohort and knowing that my life is (mostly) pretty wonderful. Things have calmed down for the most part, I have renewed confidence that I am indeed qualified for this grad program, I’m in the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in, and I have a lot to look forward to in the coming weeks and months.
I still miss Mom terribly and I cried today because I can’t share any of this with her, at least not in the way I want to. But I’m in a good place right now and I am so grateful for that.