I got a burst of creative energy last night and made significant progress on the tallit. I think it will be mostly presentable tomorrow. I still need to write a speech, but I’m not freaking out about that yet.
I got the paperwork to claim my mom’s work benefits today. It absolutely devastated me. She’s been gone for over a month and I’m still finding it hard to believe that she’s not here. I keep wanting to call her and tell her about things that are going on. Roxy is still coughing and I want to ask my mom what I should do. I want to curl up next to her and cry as she tells me to get it all out. Sometimes I feel like I won’t ever make it through this grief and that scares me.