Three Months

Dear Eliza,

You are three months old today! You are growing by leaps and bounds and I just cannot believe that I’m lucky enough to be your mama. You love being held, going on walks, and looking in the mirror. You are babbling and cooing all the time and when you smile, my heart absolutely melts. 

I returned to work today and it was hard. I was in tears saying goodbye to you when your papa dropped me off and I thought about you often throughout the day. You have changed my life and perspective so much in just three short months. I wonder all the time what you’re going to be like as you grow up and I love watching your personality continue to emerge. 

Your first Jewish lifecycle event is coming up in just over a week. You will be welcomed into the Jewish community and given your Hebrew name. I’m so excited for you and, to be honest, a little jealous because you get to grow up Jewish. I only came into Judaism in my mid-twenties and you will experience it in ways that I cannot. Being able to give you that means so much to me. You have a community that loved you from the moment I told them I was pregnant and they are some of your biggest supporters, which won’t change as you continue to grow. I’m so happy that you have them in your life. 

You have brought a softness to me that didn’t really exist before. I sing silly songs to you and make silly faces and noises (and sometimes even in front of other people!), plus you have inspired me to reach out to family that I haven’t spoken to very much. You have also made me reassess certain things in my life and whether or not change is needed. I want to be the best version of myself for you. Everything in my life affects you now and I have to be mindful of that. I hope I can be a good mama for you. 

Thank you for choosing me. 

Love,

Mama