Day 265

I found out I was pregnant two months ago. I had been told in my twenties that it would be hard for me to get pregnant without medical help, for a variety of reasons, so it was a shock to see that the pregnancy test I took on a whim was positive. I was immediately overjoyed and excited and overwhelmed and I still am. 

Mom died nine months ago and she won’t be here for the birth of her grandchild. It’s bittersweet. I’m excited to become a mom but I’m terrified because I won’t have her here to guide me. My fiancée has been great and this baby is already so loved by so many people, but I wish she were here.