Day 154.5

I had a quiet breakdown tonight. I usually take showers, but tonight I took a bath because I just didn’t have the energy to do anything more. I stared at the water while too many thoughts swirled around in my brain. I guess this is one of those waves of grief that come out of nowhere and, unfortunately, I am alone while it engulfs me. I know there are many people I could call right now to guide me through this, I just don’t have the energy to go over my chaotic thoughts over the phone. 

I’m not really sure why I’m sharing this. I’ll get through this like I always do, that much I know.