Day 53

I’ve been described as an old soul. I am the first to admit that I am pretty awkward when I find myself in large groups of millenials/my peers. Very often, I find that my goals and priorities are much different than someone else my age. My upbringing probably has a lot to do with that. I was raised by a single mom and am an only child. I had to learn pretty early how to be independent and responsible. I was often the only kid in any family setting, which meant that I heard a lot of gossip and stories that no child should ever hear. I also developed really good hearing and quickly learned to lose myself in books when I was in those situations.

I also feel like a late bloomer, which sounds weird. There are some social experiences and other things that I haven’t yet experienced. I haven’t really dated much since high school, which I was okay with until friends my age started getting married, buying houses, and doing all those adult-like things. I do want to get married one day and have a family, but it just seems like perhaps those things are a little further into my future than I would like.

I don’t really know why I’m writing about this now. I suppose it’s just been on my mind a lot lately, maybe in part of that “Oh-crap-I’m-turning-30-soon” crisis.